The Tiger’s Wife: A Review (Part II)

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And then, there is the returning to a child again.  For me, part of this returning has happened in my travels, in seeing how others view the world.  Part of it has been my daughter, and her effervescence for life, lived only as a child could do it.  For the grandfather, becoming a child again comes through meeting the deathless man.

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Revision is Development

In continuing the recent trend of this blog actually living up to its moniker, I offer an insight into the everyday world of a living, breathing, unsuccessful writer.  Below is a first draft from my latest novel, and the revision that I worked on this weekend — a revision that will be followed by two or three more before I have the novel where I want it.

The road was black and green spilled onto its edges before everything disappeared into darkness.  You could not stop the grass from growing here in Kentucky, and the weeds.  It had been a wet summer; the rains didn’t let up until a couple of weeks ago.  I liked driving through the hills because I had to downshift and it kept me awake.  I tried the radio but knew that unless I was passing by a tower at the time, I could never get any signal.  Static, with faint mists of voices like they were dead and trying to communicate with me across the great divide.  It didn’t bother me too much, but I worried about tomorrow afternoon.  That’s exactly what I worried about.  After a night and a morning in the car, when the sun hung in the sky at four o’clock, that would be terrible to have no other voices.  Late afternoon was always the worst time of the day.  The day was dying and you knew you didn’t have too much light left, but it wasn’t yet night or even sunset.  It was just day stretched out like a desert, with nothing to do but wait for night to come and its peaceful or terrifying darkness.  The darkness doesn’t matter, only that it is a change.  I imagine the same thing happens in the morning, during the dullness of night an hour or two before the sun rises, but I’m never awake at that time.  Maybe tonight.  Maybe tonight.

And, the edits from Sunday:

The road was black, but green spilled onto its edges before everything disappeared into darkness.  It had been a wet summer; the rains didn’t let up until a couple of weeks ago, and everything grew without limit: the Bermuda grass and foxtail grass and thistle, all mixed together and going to seed and awaiting the judgment of winter.  Trees, though, clutched the rolling hills, their roots deep and intertwined in the limestone, and grass only grew at the edges of these forests.  I liked driving the hills with the trees, because there was a majesty to them and they would survive the winter, because I had to downshift and it kept me awake.  I turned the radio on, briefly, but only heard fragments of voices against the white static; voices like ghosts.  Or, voices like God trying to say something, but there was too much static and I was driving away.

I needed to reach Memphis tomorrow afternoon.  My radio could find some voice then, among the voices of the city, because late afternoon was the cruelest time: the sun beats and day stops like evening will never come, and we sit with our memory of the morning and desire for the evening, like we are neither living nor dead.  So for that time, I wanted a radio.

You can see some of the development that has come from my revision.  First, the sentences (I believe) are clearer, and I found the detail of the Bermuda grass by going back and working harder to envision the roadside.

Moreover, the first excerpt became too rambling for me — it felt like I was trying to channel Holden Caulfield, with a little more poetry.  By revising and focusing a bit longer on the grass, the radio, even though the thoughts of the narrator move similarly, the second version rambles less.

In focusing on the time of day, I tied the revised version to his overall journey, and then threw in some T.S. Eliot to help portray his thoughts/feelings.  Of course, just at that moment of gravitas, he isn’t someone overly deep, so he backs off and asserts his need for the radio.

I’m also playing with some themes — death (which ties in with Eliot’s “Wasteland”), and a strained conception of God, which made its way into the second (actually, third or fourth) draft.

So, a small window into the inner workings of a subsequent draft.  One of the most important messages I remember from grad school is that: revision IS development.  We cannot help but add a fuller conception of characters and landscape and theme as we revise.

I’d love to hear thoughts (anyone like the first one better?), questions, musings…

Part III

Final part 3.  Click here for part 1 or part 2.

The man stopped speaking again.  The villagers did not whisper now and their faces were blank.  David glanced at Billy, at the man, at the villagers.  He began to pull the money out of his pocket.  They will not hurt me.  Hurt us.

“The man, he says he will not bring this death to us.  He says that we are strangers to this village and this lake.”  David shoved the money back down into his pocket.  The sweat began to dry on his back.

Billy continued.  “He says that strangers, they do not get punished with equality as members of the village.”  David nodded and thought of his prayer.  “But we did bring death to this village.  And this village is on this lake.  We brought death to this whole lake.  The man, he says that we must leave this village and not come back.  If we come back to this village, he cannot tell us what will happen.  It will be bad for us.

“And he says that they have told other villages on this lake what we have done.  He says that he made notice that the other villages not to harm us.  But these other villages, they will not listen to us.  We must take our message to elsewhere.”

The man with the scars on his chest and arms pointed toward the road with a straight finger and steady hand.  David felt an emptiness inside himself.  But we came.  This is why we came, he protested to himself and to God.  Billy felt the cool relief on his skin that came from a slight breeze and the mercy of the villagers.  He touched David on the elbow.  “Let us go.”  The man and the villagers did not stir.  The trees murmured.  David’s shoe knocked the empty copper bowl and made a melancholy thump.  David grasped that this village lacked the money in his pocket.  He had asked God what to do with the money.

“Billy.  What if we offer them the money?  Maybe they will listen to us.  Or they’ll let other villages listen.”

A gray cloud moved in front of the sun; the wind blew high above them.  Billy rubbed his hair with his hand and thought.  The coolness on his skin began sinking into his bones.  “I do not think we should do this.  God, he is the one who opens hearts.  Not money.”

“But we must be shrewd, Billy.  And we have the money to offer.  It will open a way for God.”

Billy’s dark and baggy eyes, his flaccid body almost grew smaller.  “It is your decision.”  He exhaled slowly, the lethargic sound of David’s father in the hospital.  A rush of wind came from the lake and threw sand into the air and the trees whistled.  Then, calm and stillness settled again.

David drew the money from his pocket: a thick wad of dirty bills.  He held it in the air and took the rubber band off.  The bills were colorful: blue and green and orange.  He pulled off one banknote and held it in the air.  It wilted in the heat.  The villagers looked on with blank faces.

“Tell them we offer them money as restitution.  Tell them we want to help.  Maybe it’ll open a door.”

Billy watched his friend holding money in the air and the villagers’ sad eyes.  The darkness had not left.  David was like a thousand men now: the missionaries and explorers and overseers and businessmen who came to Africa for adventure and success; men who thought Africa was a great dark machine that only needed the proper oil and care.  David smiled obsequiously at the villagers.  “Tell them.  Maybe they will listen.”

Billy thought of his father in the anemic light of the shop in Lusaka and his voice ringing off the silverware and cups and metal bowls.  David was his father, speaking only English and demanding success.  Billy turned away and walked back to the road.  His shoulders felt heavy; his feet ached with tired heat.

David saw his friend leave and took a few steps back toward the villagers.  He grabbed the copper bowl and placed the bank notes into it.  “For you.”  He spoke loudly even though they could not understand.  He smiled again and waved.  He poured oil into the machine.  Then, he turned and followed Billy, his heels crunching on the dry ground.  Another rush of wind stung sand into his eyes.  He glanced back at the village.  Colorful bank notes floated in the air and drifted along the ground with the wind.  They looked like butterflies.  The man and the villagers stayed still.  The banana-leaf roofs of the white huts flapped in the wind behind them.

Excerpt Part II

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Billy’s feet shuffled in the laterite dust and blush red covered them.  The red dust mixed with his sweat and small stains of red covered his ankles and shins.  His head and arms glinted and his purple shirt was wet around the armpits and neckline.  Even now, the abandoned copper bowl sat near the acacia tree.  The crushed lime was gone.  The boy saw Billy and David first.  He wore the same blue and dirty shorts and his skin gave the impression of saran wrap over his ribs.  He was outside the hut and followed the chicken, clucking at it.  When he saw them, he yelled.  David did not understand the words.  He gripped the wad of money in his pocket.

He recognized the faces that came out of the hut and blinked in the sunlight.  The death wail stopped after the boy yelled and the faces came out without speaking.  Bare feet scraped the bare earth.  The villagers did not look at them straight on; they only glanced at David’s feet or torso before looking away.  The woman wore the same yellow and black chitenge and pink earth stained it at her hips.  Another woman nursed a baby.  She may have been the same who ate the dirt yesterday.  The boy’s father, the husband of yellow-and-black, came closer to David and Billy.  He wore torn green pants that maybe came from the army.  He was bare-chested, too, and he had scars on his chest and upper arms that looked like cigarette burns.  He grimaced at David and Billy and his bald head gleamed in the sun.  His gaze held pain more than anger.  David could not hold it.  His chin and jaw were strong and square and set.  The villagers remained quiet after they came out.  The chicken wandered behind the hut.  Billy reached out and grasped David’s left hand.  This was not only a sign of friendship here in this Zambian village, but of solidarity.  It acted as a physical sign of connection.  David felt the sweat forming between their hands.

The air hung heavy and still.  The man with the grimace stood in the full sunlight.  His dark skin looked stronger, more solid than David’s white skin.  He was strong because he wore scars and military fatigues and pain in his eyes.  Billy saw the scars and realized this man was a witch-doctor.  He said nothing to David, but he squeezed his hand tighter.

The man spoke and Billy squeezed harder and David’s hand began to ache.  The words snapped out of the man’s mouth: the bw- and nd- sounds reverberated hard and condemning.  David felt naked and small in front of the villagers and the man.  The man’s eyes seemed to look down on him.  David, his right hand in his pocket, kept clutching the bundle of money.  He pulled his sweating hand from Billy’s.

Billy let his hand slap against his hip.  His shoulders drooped.  He focused on the empty copper bowl at David’s feet.  He jutted out his bottom lip like an extra covering over his mouth.  He would not reply until the man completely finished.  As the two waited there mutely, the villagers gradually grew like the man, bold and forceful.  They looked the strangers in the eye and the dirt-eater stomped her foot and kicked up pale red dust; her baby and breast wagged.  Billy stared with sadness at the copper bowl.  The man continued.  Billy did not reach for David’s hand again.  David squeezed the bundle of colored bills tighter in his pocket, the soft, dirty paper.  The man with the bare chest and the burns had white spittle on his lip.  God— David began to pray but could only think of the money: this destitute, dusty village needed the money.  They would not hurt them.  He had money.  There was sand between his teeth.  He swallowed it.

The words stopped.  The man pointed at David and nodded.  The villagers behind the man whispered and glared and the yellow-and-black woman shook her head at them.

“Cabipa sana.”  Billy did not raise his eyes as he spoke.  “Sana, sana, sana.”  David did not understand.  “He says this old man sat everyday at this tree.”  Billy lifted a crooked finger toward the tree.  “He says this old man waited to die.  He waited for to die at peace.  He waited for to die alone.  This is why he sat by the tree and did not wish for to die in the hut.  He says that we came and brought death to the father of his wife.  He waited by the tree for to die alone.  We did not let the man die alone.”

The man who had spoken watched them.  He jowled at them with his long jaw.  David wondered if he had some type of oil on his head with the way it reflected the morning sunlight.  Billy’s voice fell to a gritty whisper.  “This man says that the law is for him to take revenge.  The law of the village says that since we brought death to the man, someone must bring death to us.”  Billy coughed.  He took a deep and slow breath and the sound was muted and sluggish.  He nodded.  The man began speaking again.

David did not listen to the man who spoke again.  A flash of fever thudded behind his eyes.  He hemorrhaged sweat.  The villagers scowled with puckered lips and slant eyes.  The village began to spin, slowly.  David’s hand twitched and the bundle of bills was sticky against his thigh.  I have money, he thought.  I am white.  They will not harm me.  He looked sideways at Billy.  Billy nodded every few moments but did not raise his eyes.  He prayed for Billy.  If something happened to Billy he would be alone.  His other hand opened and closed, opened and closed.  They will not hurt me.  He even prayed for the villagers: that they would show mercy and that they would find Jesus.  One older man had a twisted leg that bowed outward from his hip and made him lean like a windblown tree.  David prayed for him.  He prayed for the boy who had the copper bowl yesterday and now stood near his mother.  They will not hurt me.  He prayed for the boy’s mother in the yellow and black and for his father with the bare chest and cigarette scars.  He thought of Maria, too, and prayed for her.  He reached into his pocket again and rubbed a bill between his fingers.  God, don’t let them hurt us and show me what to do with the money.  Sweat dripped down his back.

Tune back in tomorrow for the final installment.

The River

The man sat beside the river.  The morning sun made the river orange and alive.  His wife would not live.  He had asked the doctor who looked down and said, “We’ll try everything.”  His wife sent him away this morning.  Ducks swam haphazardly with the current.  Small buds clung tightly to tree branches.  He would go to the hospital today even though his wife would not live.  It was all he could do; he had to go or he would forget who he was.  He would kneel beside her bed and smile and pray.  She would grasp his hand.